i'm getting psyched.

guys, five weeks and my brother comes home!! five weeks and i will be spending seven days in the happiest place on earth. i can't wait. thinking about it makes me want to barf, but in a good way. kind of like the barfing that happens right before you get married (i'm assuming? idk from experience). so, because i am so psyched i am posting some extra spershall pics of disneyland that i have taken in the past. and some pics of me and my bro at d-land because i love him so.
keep in mind, these pics are from at least 2 yrs ago, i've changed alot... we all have.

me and my bruzzahs with stitch!!!


herloweeeeeen at disneyland!!

why does tigger always touch me inappropriately?

notice that we were the only ones on the coaster. that was also our fifth time on it.

mr. toad's wild ride.

i love this place.

waterfall by indiana jones ride.

my summer home.

just some weird /artsy view of the matterhorn.

me and stefan at carnation cafe. he looks like he loves having me hang around.

alice in wonderland.

lert me just preface this post by saying that ever since i was a young buck i have wanted to work at disneyland. but not just any job, i wanted to be a character, one of the ones who gets to wear a wig and a dress and sign autographs and pose for pictures, one who has a line following her wherever she goes, and preferably one with a british accent, as that is my favorite accent to annoy people with. anyways, that fact may help you understand why there are a gazillion pictures too many of me dressed up as alice in wonderland. this is my favorite movie, and the movie in which i collect the most things from (i.e. books, posters, mini figurines, dolls, stuffed animals, blankets, etc.). being dressed up like this really made me want to work for disney again (although this time my dream can't include working as alice, as alice musn't be taller than 4'10") and it also made me want to go blonde again (i have issues). i also couldn't help the sudden urges i would get to sign an autograph, or courtsey for a photo. and don't think that the entire night i didn't say "shAUnt", and "cAUnt" instead of "can't", because i did. i also found myself using annoying phrases like "oh dear me". my 8-year-old self is jumping for joy.


when will i ever be dressed up so beautifully again? never, probably. not if i want to get married in this life anyways. so i pretty much went crazy with my camera. to move up the "nerd" meter one more notch, i shall include my favorite lines from the movie to go with each picture.



"if i had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. and contrary-wise; what it is it wouldn't be, and what it wouldn't be, it would. You see? "


"you may have noticed that I'm not all there myself..."

"curiouser and curiouser...."

"well, when one's lost, I suppose it's good advice to stay where you are until someone finds you. but who'd ever think to look for me here?"

"oh, pooh. I'm not afraid of you. why, you're nothing but a pack of cards!"

Caterpillar: Who... are... you?

Alice: Why, I hardly know, sir. I've changed so much since this morning, you see...

Caterpillar: No, I do not C... explain yourself.

Alice: I'm afraid I can't explain myself, you see, because I'm not myself, you know.

Caterpillar: I do not know.

Alice: I can't put it any more clearly, sir, because it isn't clear to me.

"curiosity often leads to trouble..."

alice: "but I don't want to go among mad people!"

chesire cat: "oh, you can't help that, most everyone's mad here."

doorknob: "read the directions, and directly you will be directed in the right direction."

alice: "better read it first, for if one drinks much from a bottle marked "poison", it's almost certain to disagree with one sooner or later... oh well."

"it would be so nice if something would make sense for a change..."

"well, after this i shall think nothing of falling downstairs!"

"when i get home i shall write a book about this place... if i ever do get home..."

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some of my other favorites:

"of all the silly nonsense... this is the stupidest tea party I've ever been to in all my life!"

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king of hearts: "rule 42: all persons more than a mile high must leave the court immediately!"

alice: "I am not a mile high, and I'm not leaving."

Queen of Hearts: "Sorry. Rule 42, you know."

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March Hare: "why don't you start at the begining?"

Mad Hatter: "yes and when you reach the end... stop."

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"i'm tired of being only three inches high..."

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"i have an excellent idea... LETS CHANGE THE SUBJECT!"

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"ahoy, and other nautical expressions!"

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Tweedle Dum: "if you think we're waxworks, you ought to pay, you know."

Tweedle Dee: "contrarywise, if you think we're alive you ought to speak to us."

Tweedle Dee, Tweedle Dum: "that's logic."

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"oh yes mustard! that'll do... MUSTARD?! don't let's be silly. now lemon, that's different..."

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Mad Hatter: "ah thank goodness! those are the things that upset me!"

March Hare: "see all the trouble you started?"

Alice: "but I didn't think..."

March Hare: "ah, that's just it. if you don't think, then you shouldn't talk."

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"no wonder you're late. why, this watch is exactly two days slow."

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"in my world, the books would be nothing but pictures."

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"goodness. i suppose i'll be taking orders from dinah next."

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"we'll blow the thing there out, we'll smoke the monster out!"

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"sentence first! Verdict afterwards."

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Alice: "Oh, no, no. I was just wondering if you could help me find my way."

Cheshire Cat: "Well that depends on where you want to get to."

Alice: "Oh, it really doesn't matter, as long as... "

Cheshire Cat: "Then it really doesn't matter which way you go!"

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i do hope my nerdiness entertained somebody,

gabrielle.

trunk or treat.

it's become a little tradition that my surrogate children, the farnsworth's, come with me to trunk or treat. i have so much fun with them each year, plus if i bring them along it makes it a bit more ok for me to be dressing up at (gasp) 24. this year was super fun because my date was indiana jones, and summer is getting old enough now to where she is really like a friend to me instead of a child; i love that. even though meg isn't as old as summer, she talks like she's older which is what i love about her, because i was the same way. everytime i do something with these kids i am reminded of the love i have for them and also the unconditional love they have for me. i mean, it has to be love, right? otherwise why would they be seen with their former nanny dressed as a disney character? exactly.



bo peep (summer), indie (ike), alice, and cleopatra (meg).

sumdizzle, meggy, ike, me, connor (donald duck, love it), and austin.

me and c-rock!

meg did a great job taking this photo! me and summer and ike.

summer's photo skills were muy impressive because she was working with only one hand.

ike and i.

me and two of my primary kids from last year, morgan and madelyn. it was so fun to see everyone and to see the little kids' faces light up when they realized who i was. i can't believe how smart they all are.

me and gracie loo. i remember when this girl said my name the first time. if i think about it too hard, it will make me cry. i love her family though. there are two families that i will still babysit for, and hers is one of them.

jene and baby lilly. jene is gracie's mommy, and a very dear friend of mine. she is always so supportive of me, i love her.

me with peyton and chandler. these are also former primary children of mine.

me with bryson. this kid is a stud. he is one of my primary kids now and he was so cute when he found me. he ran up to me and hugged me so tight and said "I KNEW I WOULD FIND YOU!! I'VE BEEN LOOKING ALL OVER!!" he is a sweetheart. last sunday he insisted on sitting on my lap and playing with my hair and necklace all through closing excercises while i sat and sang songs of thanksgiving. who needs a boyfriend when you have boys like ike and bryson in your life? not this lady!

HSM3 at midnight.

proving once again that i am not afraid of posting grossly unattractive pictures of myself, i have included some from the night me and a few of my ACE gang went to see HSM3 at midnight. you can tell the pictures that i am delirious in. i want you all to know that after waiting an hour i got so loopy that i did my shirley temple impression for the entire theater (and believe me, that's not one to be missed), and at one point, i may have confessed to wanting to marry tim curry circa 1987. god save the queen.


me and chanel.
chanel and me part duex.

well, there that is. that pretty much sums up the night, folks. she's ashamed, and i can't say i blame her.

malia and me.

malia, chan, me, syd, and muck. we are SSSEEEEEWWWWW KEWWWWWLLLLL.

fall... you know, like leaves FALL?!

basically, these are just pictures of my new "darker" fall hair color. they are the kind of pictures that i post of myself that make my muti laugh at me on account of, as she says, "who takes pictures of themselves like that?!" (aparently, me, though i'm not sure why). so, these are for you, d.w. view them, let them sink in, enjoy them.

three of life's great annoyances.

i know most of you are thinking that a great annoyance is the fact that this is my third post today, but i can't help it. i have one more thing to say. i made a favorites list, so i thought just to balance things out, i'd make a list of things that are so NOT my favorites. it's a short list, but an important one. here it goes...

1. halloween parties that are not on halloween... ESPECIALLY when halloween falls on a friday.

2. the fact that boys are so un-emotional. they are missing a very LARGE CHIP that tells you to like, be a human. i can't even tell you how annoyed i am by this text, from a male: "sorry". uh, that's it. no capitalization, no puncuation, no "i'm" in front of it, just one word, "sorry". ANNOYING. another one i hate to no end... "yup", again, no punctuation, capitalization, it's not even "yes" or "ya", it's just "yup". in the words of stephanie tanner, "HOW RUUUUUUUUDE!"


ok, seriously, honest to blog i forgot the third thing already. heaven help me. and it was way worse than the other two. what is happening to me? how does a person forget something so crucial?! hells bells. one thing i love more than anything right now, though, is the fact that i am FINE. did you know that? i am fine. there are so many people that have been in and out of my life in the past few years/months/weeks and some of them i thought were great losses and some of them i thought "BFD". but you know what? they all turned out to be BFDs. i was so scared to start sticking up for myself b/c i was afraid i was going to lose people who are important to me but it turns out i just got rid of the people who didn't deserve to be in my life in the first place. though the decisions have been hard, and it's true i have missed some of the people, i find myself having to deal with alot less crap than before, and quite frankly, i feel alot better about myself. i love how some people think that they can treat me a certain way and i'll just take the crap and apologize for doing nothing all because i supposedly "need" these people in my life. but i don't "need" anyone like that. sure, a diminishing friend list has its downfalls (i.e. no big halloween party to attend), but even if i had ABSOLUTELY NO FRIENDS AT ALL (which, i need to add is far from the case) i would still have my family. and there's no shame in that, in fact there is great joy in that for me. nothing makes me happier than my family. and guess what? forget the halloween parties that all those other squares are attending, because i'm having my own. and i am making homemade donuts and putting on a play (wicked) and playing games and watching scary movies, all while dressed up in my halloween costume. so there.

p.s. stefan comes home in FIVE WEEKS. sukkkkkas!!

ABC's

i will try my very best to give only one answer for each letter. i've never been very conservative, so i'm guessing i won't get far with that goal.

A-Attached or Single: single.
B-Best Friend: my mom. but my current ACE gang is: malia, chanel, and leslie. plus honorary ACE gang members: samantha, sandee, and lucia.
C-Cake or Pie: cake. usually cupcakes.
D-Day: thursday.
E-Essential Item: chap stick. and evian. dang, i am doing HORRIBLY at the one answer business.
F-Favorite Color: in general? green. to wear? navy blue.
G-Gummi bears or gummi worms: bears. they are my fave.
H-Hometown: mesa ,az. i need to leave.
I-Indulgences: psssssshhhhh, my entire life is an indulgence! but specifically music, makeup, and movies. and accesories.
J-January or July: january.
K-Kids: the farnsworths (cole, summer, meg, ike), the nuttalls (malleri, merissa, ella, lucy, sawyer), and the huyters (lewis, emma, madelyn, grace, lilly, and unnamed, unborn baby). none of my own yet.
L-Life is incomplete without: my mom. my entire family, really.
M-Marriage Date: well, if i knew that i would feel alot better about things, i am sure. i have a feeling i will get married in the after life.
N-Number of Siblings: 2 (brothers).
O-Oranges or Apples: oranges.
P-Phobias or Fears: losing a tooth!! being clingy or needy. being dependent on someone else. eating hair. getting sand in my eye.
Q-Quote: well, there are quite a few on my blog already. but i'm sure i have more. "make the decision to be someone, not something."
R-Reason to Smile: random text messages. concerts. the jonas brothers youtube videos.
S-Season: winter.
T-Tag: no one reads this so no one gets tagged. if you read it, i tag you. you win.
U-Unknown fact about me: i am extremely gifted at knowing useless facts about people, places, and things. like trivia. i always win.
V-Vacation destination of choice: disneyland. always and forever.
W-Worst Habit: appearing too needy when i really am not.
X-X-Rays or Ultrasounds: what? clearly whoever made this survey did not know any other words that started with "X" besides "x-ray". why not "xylophone or digereedoo"? ok fine... xrays. i have bad experiences with ultrasounds.
Y-your favorite food: that was a big stretch for a "y" word. american, all the way. chicken fingers, baked potatoes, hamburgers, french fries, salad, jello. stuff like that.
Z-Zodiac Sign: really? aries. but i am re-writing this one. my "Z" is "zoo animal i would choose to be": and the answer is..... llama. because it rhymes with "pajama", "mama", and "bahama". and they have silly necks.

"Bet On It" vs. "Scream"

in HSM there was "Get'cha Head In the Game". In HSM2, it was "Bet On It", which was, by far, my favorite scene and song from the movie. In HSM3 it's "Scream" that takes the cake. These are all of Troy's (aka Zac Efron) "monologues", which of course are done in sing-song (aren't musicals the best?!). Though "Bet On It" has been my fave for the past year, HSM3 definately did deliver with "Scream", though i can't say for sure which song is my favorite yet. I go back and forth... sometimes i think the filming of "Scream" is better, and of course it would be with the bigger budget. But i just don't know if anything can top the pixie-like leaping and frolicking through the golf course that Zac delivers so well. I mean, how many guys could prance along the grass with such grace and still be so darn cool and good looking? For gazelles it may be easy, but for humans, it is quite the challenge. So I've posted both videos, neither of them HQ(give me a break here, they are from youtube), so I can weigh the pros and cons and make an educated decision on which is the better "monologue". Let's face it, the real reason i posted these has little to do with finding out which is better, and everything to do with the fact that i have a hard time getting through the ten hour work day, and a little Zefron makes it a tiny bit easier. I just didn't want to have to search youtube each time. I'm lazy, so sue me.

"Bet On It"



"Scream"


any thoughts?

yesterday was a pretty good day. i got my halloween costume in the mail, and it is gorgeous. at first i was feeling total buyer's remorse for spending so much on a costume, what with the economy being horrible like it is right now, but when i put it on last night, i couldn't help but fall in love. believe me, i will be wearing the costume long after halloween is over. it is perfect.

i also found, after two weeks of searching, the W magazine with angelina jolie on the cover. i don't like W magazine normally, it's really not my cup of tea as far as magazines go, but she is stunning, and she is such an amazing woman, so obviously i had to see the pictures and have my very own copy of the mag. inside is a thirty-something page layout all of photos shot by brad pitt (maybe you've heard of him?) and a small article attached. she is so graceful and so kind and truly, when the woman speaks i am like "HOLY CROW" because she is just so articulate and amazing. i want to be like her when i grow up.... wake up, feed the kids, give to charity, put babies down for naps, adopt babies who need homes from thrid world coutries, make out with beautiful husband who likes my body better with stretch marks from giving birth, play with adorable kids at the chateau, build a school for children in africa, make out with gorgeous husband, make dinner, give kids baths, put kids to bed, watch a little project runway on tivo, make out with most beautiful man alive, fall asleep with most beautiful man alive, get woken up two hours later by beautiful babies. sounds perfect.

also lately i have been on this old movie kick and i have been watching all these old timer movies. i watch at least one a day (after my chores and excercise are complete, thankyouverymuch). my favorites so far have been chinatown, heaven can wait, and bonnie and clyde, but only because warren beatty was such a hunkasaurus. i just finished breakfast at tiffany's last night and i have to say, it was not what i expected AT ALL. it is quite possibly the most depressing movie i have ever seen. sheesh, talk about a downer. the next movies on my netflix queue are: valley of the dolls, splendor in the grass, and reds. it's ridiculous how excited i am to watch them this weekend. it's also ridiculous how excited i am for...
the midnight showing of hsm3 which i am going to tonight. you know, i feel a sudden urge to defend myself for being such a weiner and having no life, but i do have a life, and it's a pretty good one, so i'm not gonna apologize for that.