12.30.2009

someday at christmas...

...christmas '09 checklist...



  • "accidentally" fracture foot three days before we leave so i have to wear a stinky old boot around.

  • as part two of said "foot fracture" operation, get wheeled around disneyland by my loving family.

  • get pictures by/of my fave alice in wonderland-themed spots.











  • get brothers to win me loads of stuffed treasures on the boardwalk.



  • ride dumbo!



  • watch fireworks on christmas eve.... and get snowed on!







  • get "unique" photos of disney.

(yup, counting myself as a unique photo...)

















  • get a good seat for the electrical parade.

  • get ignored by nearly everyone because nobody listens to me when i am so low to the ground.


  • solidify invisibilty theory when i am "ran over" by baby toting female (who looks a bit like jennifer lopez to me) and huge black man.


  • laugh uncontrolably when i realize that "baby toting female" is in fact jennifer lopez, and "huge black man" is her bodyguard.


  • four celebrity sightings at christmas dinner, including j. lo, marc anthony, leah remini, and taboo from the black eyed peas, the only one that i had the courage to get a picture with (by "get a picture", i mean follow him out of the restaurant and down the hall, evesdropping on his conversation to make sure he wasn't going to punch me in the face when i asked for said picture.)






  • annoy everyone with "operation: foot fracture".

  • purchase (i.e. talk mum into purchasing) gorgeous black coat, wear around for the next three days.
  • confused by the compliment given to me at breakfast from my brother in regards to my new jacket ("you're looking very derelict today"). what i thought he meant: "that new jacket is smashing on you!" what he actually meant "you look like a homeless person"

  • google "derelict" via cell phone. find, "a person abandoned by society, esp. a person without a permanent home and means of support; vagrant; bum".

  • try not to hunch over so much in my wheelchair, so as not to confirm my homeless status to anyone.

  • go to build-a-bear in downtown disney and build an owl. name him "owlvin".

  • overdose on mickey pretzels and cheese. slip soundly into food coma and die in the happiest place on earth.

  • ....or not.

  • buy year round pass to disneyland as present to myself, plan on going once a month for an entire year.

  • ...or not.
  • 11.06.2009

    sometimes silly stuff is worth writing about.

    i guess there are some who might say it is a sad day when i can't be bothered to blog about anything else other than joe jonas's hair, but i think it's a vair good day when i can work a jonas into my blog. and i'll do it because a. it's my blog and i'll blog about nonsense if i want to and b. i am pretty convinced that no one reads this blog anyways, so it's really for my own benefit.

    woo hoo, joe jonas got a hair cut! i'm love the new haircut although i am glad that when i met him his hair was long, like this:


    (a wolf shirt?! what even?)

    now it is perfectly coiffed like so:


    forgive me if i am right, but, urm, you can't say he isn't a little bit dashing in this photo. you may hate disney teen stars, or maybe you just hate the jonas brothers in general... but i mean, as a human, he is top shelf in the gorgey porgey department, and i am not wrong there. (bonus points since he is wearing a v-neck, one of eight items that can make even the most unfortunate looking boy better looking.)

    10.11.2009

    i love you, jason segel.

    reasons i love jason segel:


    1. he is the perfect size: tall, and slightly chubby.

    2. he was in freaks & geeks. not only was he in it, but he played my favorite character, nick andopolis. nick is funny, has tons of basketball trophies, loves music, and freaking tears up the drums (see video below). plus, he wears these short shorts when he plays the drums because he doesn't like the friction that jeans cause on his thighs.





    3. he plays the piano (my favorite), the drums, and the guitar. AND he writes music.
    4. he loves disneyland, i love disneyland.

    5. he plays my favorite character (marshall eriksen) on one of my favorite shows (how i met your mother). marshall (aka "marshmallow") is the best boyfriend/fiancee/husband ever. he loves christmas, he wears funny hats, and he sings everything that he does. plus, um, he's a lawyer, so he is super smart and will be super rich someday.

    6. the slapsgiving song, written and performed by jason segel for how i met your mother (see video below):




    7. he just teamed up with walt disney studios to write the next muppet movie.
    8. he wrote and starred in one of my favorite movies ever, forgetting sarah marshall.

    9. when brody jenner has a show called "bromance", it's gay. when jason segel stars in a movie about bromance, it's amazingly awesome and hilarious.

    10. this picture:


    11. and this picture:

    12. two words: dracula musical (see video below):


    le sigh.

    10.08.2009

    some doors are better left closed.

    there's this thing that happens to me whenever i get the urge to start organizing my closet (or underneath my bed). i get the urge about every three months. i would get it more often, but the thing about closets is, there is a door on them. so even when it's a mess in there, you can close it and then say, "CLEAN!" it's a love/hate sort of fiasco, because behind the door i know there is a mess of shoes that i never wear, posters that used to be on my wall, and records that need to be organized (among other things), but for a while, the door appeases me. the thing that happens to me when i get the urge to do a martha stewart sort of organization thing is that i buy all new rubbermaid containers and get a trash bag out, determined to throw away what is old and useless and organize what isn't, but i open the closet door, get overwhelmed and decide that it's pointless to try and organize a mess that's been there for years. where do i even start? i mean, if i really dug around in there, i would find yearbooks and spanish papers from tenth grade, and notes from old bff's and a whole bunch of really depressing stuff. so, what happens is, i end up sighing, closing the door, and thinking "some doors are just better left closed". (*side note: i feel the need to say that my closet is actually an organized mess. all of my useless crap has a place. i'm not like, super messy or anything.)
    lately that phrase has been popping into my mind alot, and it has me thinking. cleaning isn't the only love/hate relationship i have in my life (offhand excercising comes to mind, which i am currently avoiding)... i've also recently had a serious love/hate relationship with the internet, mainly facebook and blogs. on the one hand, i love things like facebook and blogs because it gives me a chance to stay in touch with people that i love in a world where i am busy most of the time. it is really convenient for me to just be able to logon and read about my cousins, or my friends that have moved away. it's also really nice to be able to send someone a message on facebook when i am thinking about them. i've always been better at expressing myself with words (no surprise there) so it's only natural that i would be attracted to these forms of communication.
    lately, however, i hate facebook. blogging, not so much, but facebook kills me. i've been kind of staying away from it, logging on just once in a while to see if i've got a message or something, but everytime i am logged on, i get a rush of TMI. i was logged on for thirty five seconds today and i knew that so-and-so started a farm, so-and-so got shot in some mafia game, i found out where a crush from high school went on his honeymoon, about four people are sick, someone partied a little too hard last night, someone is still partying a little too hard.... this isn't even everything, it's just the beginning. again, i found myself thinking, "some doors should just stay closed". even though i knew these people at one point in my life, i may have even been so close to some of them that i loved them at one point, it doesn't mean i have to know what they had for dinner. i don't think i SHOULD know what they had for dinner, to be honest. sometimes we loose contact with people because that is what is supposed to happen after high school. i liked remembering my high school crush as he was, not married to someone and going on fantastical vacations (hate to admit it, but that hurt worse than it should have i think).
    because of the amazing technology we have, we are able to connect with hundreds of thousands of people. we're able to meet people and make new friendships, which is a great thing. i've been really fortunate, i've met some of my closest friends over the internet, and i'm not really ashamed to admit that. but the downside to that technology is that it also aids us in holding on to the past. people who should have been let go a long time ago are just a mouse-click away. one click, and you can see into their whole lives; what they do for work (or don't do, as the case may be), who they married (or haven't married), how many kids they have (or don't have), what kind of car they drive (or bike they ride)... my point is, there are some people who i would love to know about. my cousin just got engaged: great! my best friend got accepted to the college that she applied to: smashing!my cousin got his mission call: hooray! my friend just had a baby: congratulations! on the other hand, there are things i don't care to know about. some kid from third grade likes rainstorms: what? someone i sat next to in home ec junior year is going to a party: why? so-and-so is a fan of something-or-other: WHO THE HELL CARES? i know this makes me sound a little bitter, and it is all kind of like, well if you hate it so much then delete your facebook, why don't you? the thing is, i know there is a happy in-between, i just don't know how to find it.
    it used to be that high school friendships/relationships ended with "have an awesome summer! keep in touch!", and while there was sadness in saying goodbye, there was also a nice finality in those goodbyes. now it's more like "have a super fun summer, stalk you in the fall!!"
    there are some people that i want to know about, that i don't mind knowing what they ate for lunch, or what they are a fan of. but there are some people that represent a certain time to me, and to know what they do on a daily basis kind of shatters that. there really is a certain pang that occurs when you find out that someone you like is setting up a date with someone else, or that the first boy you ever loved is having a magical life with his new wife. as humans, we are always hard on ourselves, it seems like we are constantly comparing our lives to other people's. now other people's lives are more accessable than ever, and it is easier to compare jobs, spouses, houses, children, etc. it can really make you feel like crap.
    sometimes i still feel like a teenager in the sense that a text message can make my day, a small whisper can shatter my world, a picture can break my heart. i don't think i need the help of facebook.
    some doors are better left closed. that way we don't have to see the mess that lies behind them.

    10.07.2009

    i've been staying away...

    ... why have i been hiding? i don't know. and i don't really feel like i've been hiding, for that matter. lately, i haven't really been interested in posting on this blog, and i don't know why that is. i've had lots of experiences worthy of a mention in a blog, but kind of felt like, c'est le point? erm, anyways. i really don't know why i am writing now except that i just read a little passage somewhere and thought it deserved a space on my blog. so i'm not going to go over what has happened to me since july 17 (although i will make quick mention that i did meet the jonas brothers..... best. day. ever., i decided what i want to be for halloween and have started working on my costume, and i had an interesting experience with a shrimp cocktail last weekend.) i don;t know what it is about this "poem" that caught my eye, it just kind of summed up how i've been feeling these past few months. where does the time go? why is it that nothing gold can stay? i watch people i love make the same mistakes over and over, and i can't do anything to stop it. where have my friends gone? i don't know them anymore. i continue to be baffled by the opposite sex, and the lack of just saying what you feel to someone else. when did words become weapons? why is a question an insult? why are we punished for wanting clarification? why do we make the same mistakes over and over again? why do i feel like i have to clean up other people's messes as well as my own? why do i have this sinking feeling that none of these questions have answers?

    i am just going to post this little note and go. i don't know when i'll be back. maybe when i have something i want to say.

    lollipops turn into cigarettes.
    the innocent ones turn into sluts.
    homework goes in the trash.
    mobile phones are used in class.
    detention becomes suspension.
    soda becomes vodka.
    bikes become cars.
    kisses turn into sex.
    remember when getting high meant swinging on a swing?
    when protection meant wearing a helmet?
    when the worst things you can get from boys were cooties?
    dad's shoulders were the highest place on earth and mom was your hero?
    race issues were about who ran the fastest.
    war was only a card game.
    and the only drug you knew was cough medicine.
    the most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees.
    and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow.
    and we couldn't wait to grow up.

    7.17.2009

    what world is this?

    last week i slept in my mutti's bed because my dad was out of town and she needed a bed mate. (she actually ended up being MY bedmate on account of the scorpinox that stung her face, but that's another fiasco all together) we were watching wizards of waverly place when i confided in her. it wasn't necessarily on purpose, the words sort of just came out. "i want to be a wizard so bad; almost as much as i want to be a vampire slayer".
    dw being the kind-hearted mutti and bff that she is looked over at me and asked me very seriously, "what world do you live in?"
    hmm... i don't really think i know.
    i replied, though, by saying, "obviously i live in my own world, one in which i laugh at shows like this because i think they really are funny and not just stupid".
    all of this talk got me thinking, and i remembered a scene from one of my favorite movies, alice in wonderland. it's right in the beginning when alice is sitting in the tree with her cat and her older sister is sitting beneath her reading a book out loud. alice is having a vair hard time paying attention, and big sis gets a bit frustrated with her.
    "alice, would you kindly pay attention to your history lesson?" she says with an exhaustive sigh.
    alice replies, frustrated, "but how can one possibly pay attention to a book with no pictures in it?"
    "my dear child, there are a great many books in this world without pictures" (she's right, but that isn't the point, keep reading).
    "in your world, perhaps. but in my world, the books would be nothing but pictures!" alice says, quite satisfied.
    "your world?! ugh! what nonsense!" her sister laughs.
    it is then that alice realizes that yes, if she had a world of her own, everything would be nonsense.

    it's true there are things in "my" world that are completely nonsensical, like my desire to have magical powers or the ability to slay vampires (i know, whatever. vampires don't exist, blah, blah...) but i exist in the "normal" world perfectly fine. i have a full-time job, for example. i go grocery shopping with my mom, i take my turn doing the dishes or cooking dinner, i pay my car payment every month, i am responsible (ish) for my healthcare, i excercise... i could go on, but this normal business is quite boring, as you can tell.
    my point, however poorly made, is this: why does it matter if sometimes i wish i had the ability to snap my fingers and have a clean room? why does it matter that i laugh, quite often, during an episode of hannah montana? (or JONAS? or wizards of waverly place? never do i laugh at iCARLY, i must add. haha) so what if i'd rather go to disneyland than france? why is it ridiculous for me to like the jonas brothers, just because i'm not fourteen? sure, i've read the harry potter series numerous times, but i also read serious books, classic books, and nonfiction books. i will argue to defend the jonas brothers, but i also will argue (and quite well) to defend my religion, my political beliefs, and my family.
    i used to put alot of pressure on myself to let my "nonsense" stuff go. you know, take the posters off of my wall, throw away my joe jonas sweat pants, give up the midnight showings... things like that. it was really hard for a while because i was torn between living a full "grown-up" life and living a life in which i write my "to-do's" down in a harry potter calendar. it was only just the other day, when i was driving to my friend malia's house, that i realized that i can have both, in moderation.
    i was driving to malia's for dinner and a music exchange fest but i knew that it might very well be the last time i saw her (for a while, anyway). she is moving to boston next week because her very talented and smart husband got accepted into harvard (woo hoo). i was kind of, sort of crying because i am really sad to lose her. she is a very good friend to me and i love her quite alot. while i was driving i was listening to a jonas brothers cd from 2006 when they were basically just babies (it's really very comical) and this song came on and it was nick's little voice singing "time for me to fly" or something silly, and for a moment i really just felt vair, vair happy.
    here i was, going to do this "grown-up" thing, saying goodbye, and i was listening to teen pop- and loving it. for a moment i thought, "who cares?", and i meant that about everything. i have never cared what people think of me, why would i start now, so late in life? i don't care if people laugh at me or think i am ridiculous because i am, quite literally, in my own world. they don't have to like it because they aren't invited to live in it anyways.
    i saw harry potter and the half blood prince yesterday (loved every second of it, you should know), and the scene that was my favorite was when harry drinks his felix felicis. he was so funny during those moments when he was affected by the "liquid luck" and it was so fun to see harry so carefree (he is usually under some distress. that comes with being "the chosen one", i suppose) anyways, here are some things that i consider my "felix felicis", the things that make me a bit floaty and giddy. these are some things that make my world spin round; things that make me happy no matter how bummed i am. i'll keep the list short, so as not to get too boring.

    -a cold bottle of evian.
    -swimming.
    -my mother.
    -any episode from any season of buffy the vampire slayer.
    -any *NSYNC song from the "no strings attached" album.
    - when one (or all) of the jonas boys wear a v-neck shirt or a plaid button-up shirt. bonus points if they wear them both together.
    -pizza.
    -driving up the mountain at night with chanel, and singing at tip top notch.
    -random text messages.
    -taking pictures of myself. i don't know why. i just think this is fun.
    -michael scott. bonus points if he is having a conversation with dwight or jim.
    -episodes of JONAS and wizards of waverly place. i don't watch tv ever, really. but when i do, it is tivoed episodes of these shows.
    -getting emails from my aunt jennie.
    -texting with malia about stupid celebrity gossip.
    -my lovelies (cole, summer, meg, and isaac. malleri, merissa, and ella.)
    -going to a movie with my family.
    -reading things that i have written.
    -my primary class (and presidency).
    -reading old emails and instant messaging conversations from kenny.
    -writing and reciting haiku's in accents with samantha.

    it isn't hard to gain access into my world, it just takes a little acceptance. sometimes, if we let ourselves go and accept that we cannot control every little thing that happens to us, it's easier to remember what made us so carefree as children. i struggle with life, there's no doubt. it seems as though there is something new to think or worry about everyday. but it helps if i can slip away for small moments into a place where magic happens.

    don't worry, i always come back.

    love,
    gabrielle.
    xx

    7.11.2009

    utah... sort of.

    here is mr. joe jonas, pledging aliegance to me. oh, joe...


    i've got so many photos to post from my trip to utah (most of them from my jonas brothers concert, not gonna lie). i would like to post them, truly i would. but the fly in the ointment is that my uploader is slower than a slow thing on a slow road to slow town. i am working on a concert blog for the few jonas readers that i have, but it will be a while before i get that going. so this is just a sample of what is in store. isn't it loverly?

    i quite think so.

    until next time,
    gabrielle.

    **side note: the blog has been posted. it's a couple posts below this one.
    xx

    discovery!

    so i bought these glasses like a year ago and i just discovered them in my side table drawer tonight and realized that, um, i love them. even if they are comedy status. i got opinions from my friends about them and they all said they were ok to wear in public so i am thinking i may give it a try someday soon. result!







    7.09.2009

    me and mr. jonas. mr. jonases... mr. jonai?

    some of these are awesome, some of them are weird. some of them are fuzzy and out of focus... but i love them all. i had the best time at the concert. i was jumping around like a maniac. A MANIAC. but that is neither here nor there. the boys' set was cut short because shedaisy played beforehand. who the crap is shedaisy and who on this earth wants to see them sing? not me, that's who. jonas brothers only had a thirty minute set but they did a good job fitting as many songs in as possible. set list was:
    "paranoid"
    "the way we roll"
    "hold on"
    "play my music"
    "much better"
    "year 3000"
    "tonight"
    "gotta find you"
    "when you look me in the eye"
    "sweet caroline"
    "lovebug"
    "s.o.s."
    "burnin' up"


    i just noticed nick's crotchal region on the screen behind joe. hmmm.

    i wish my camera wasn't a fuzzy piece of trash. then maybe these would have turned out a bit clearer.

    i don't really know that all of these pictures need captions. in fact, i'm gonna go ahead and say that they don't. i just feel like i should comment on them for some reason. this was during the last song when nick felt it was necessary to unbutton his shirt.

    kevin always looks like a goof. i think it's the hair. i love him anyways, so it doesn't matter. check out his sweet guitar though.




    we had a really hard time getting a picture of all three of them looking the same way at the same time. this time nick's guitar ruined everything.



    this picture is my favorite. for now, anyways. it'll change eventually.
    nick on the piano. yummy scrumboes. i think this was during "when you look me in the eye".



    kevin ruined this one by turning his head.

    i have a ton more but who wants to see 300+ jonas pictures besides me? nobody who reads this blog, i'll tell you that for free.
    loves,
    gabs.
    xxx
    ** i feel the need to make a slight addendum to this post. i don't have anything against shedaisy as a band, i just dislike when something is advertised as a jonas brothers headliner and then stage time is split down the middle with another band. i would have been annoyed no matter who it was, the fact that it was a band that hasn't had a cd since 2006 just makes the choice random. i have respect for all musicians, doesn't mean i like them all, but i have a respect for them. my frustration comes from paying $125 and travelling ten hours for a jonas show that ended up being just thirty minutes long. that's all. end of story, thank you, byebye.