connor gets shorn... goodbye zac efron!!

i've cut lots of hair in my day, but connor has some of the best. these pics don't do the "before" justice, but his hair is better than zac efron's. last night we shaved it off, after much begging and pleading from my dad, mom, and brother stefan. $20 later, he is a new man. well... new boy. he's still a kid to me. BEFORE.
the first chunk is the hardest.
such beautiful locks!!

sweeet brohawk!
dad hard at work.
then i stepped in, i honestly don't know who is scarier.
all done!! bravo, connor. you look good, my friend. still annoying, but you look good.

christmas eve party!

every year my family has a christmas eve party. it was a bit smaller this year, only three families came, but it was still packed with craziness and laughter and yes, lots of singing. we ate good food and played charades. i can't handle the funny level of my family members. everytime i get together with them i am reminded of how greatful i am to be in their lives and to have them in my own.
nichole during charades. the girl's team lost but nichole was awesome at acting out christmas songs.
merissa, ella, and maleri performing their christmas song!
beautiful ella who is the sweetest peanut ever. you can't tell her no, it's impossible.
merissa opening her book from aunt debbie.
maleri opening presents.

my dad acting out "present". he helped lead the boys to victory.
taylor is a champ. she guessed "fireplace" with my horrible actions.
wyatt giving the boys his clue of a "movie", or as uncle eric said "BOXING KANGAROO!"
maleri was awesome at this game, both of the girls were. and they looked so pretty during. cheaters!!

erin doing "night before christmas", which actually should have been "NIGHTMARE before christmas".
maddie says "five words".
chad the charades champ. he was a little TOO good at this game. i think he and nic practice at home during the off season.
connor is just awesome. don't know what he was acting out.
aunt kristie is my favorite. she and i didn't really understand the whole NOT talking concept. woops.

i wish i had a river i could skate away on...

do you ever get the feeling that you are someone's backup? and not in a good way, like "i'm going in, you're my backup", but in a way like "i am calling you to hang out, but only because no one else can". i think i have made a living out of being a backup. i am like, the leading backup lady. it's worse than a supporting actress because at least supporting actresses get their own scenes, whereas i only get lines if so-and-so is doing something and is unavailable to hang out. so i'm like an understudy. perfect example: on my seventeenth birthday my BEST FRIEND left my house and told me she was going to get her stuff to sleep over and she took my other friend with her and told me to wait at my house for them, that they'd be right back, and guess what? they came back at four in the morning. she went to spend the night with her boyfriend instead. so i spent my seventeenth birthday waiting for my best friend to come back. another example: same friend, different night. i was hanging out with my friend and her boyfriend, she was sleeping at my house. she lieft at like ten to take him home, said she'd come right back, and guess what? i fell asleep waiting for her. she showed up at three a.m. and woke me up, and then made me feel like i was a crazy byotch for having my feelings hurt and being upset. look people. i don't care if you call me, i don't care if you show up, but please, please don't tell me you will. it's like when friends write in your yearbook "we'll hang out!!" and it's like uh, ya, right. that i even understand b/c it is from people who you just have classes with, but what i can;t understand is when it's done by your best friends. i'm so tired of hearing "i'll call you" or "i'll be there in a minute" or "let's do something this weekend" and then having nothing happen. i just end up falling asleep by the phone. and that is the worst feeling ever. waking up and realizing nobody called. i don't mean to be bitchy, or to like be venting on this thing, i am just tired and sad and kind of a little lonely. and it's nobody's fault except mine, and it's not even one friend in particular that i am talking about. i'm just asking for everyone in my life to please, please cut me some slack. i am sick and i hurt and i'm tired of hurting and crying. this is just a mess. i'm gonna go watch some LOST. alone, in case anyone is wondering.



just for once in my life i would like to be someone's first choice instead of their last.


signed, gabrielle.

i love isaac.

alright, so i know that technically isaac is NOT my child, but it feels like he is sometimes when we spend so much time together. and i love him so much, he is my sweetest little baby face and i am so greatful that he is in my life. so it only made sense to me to steal this video from his mother and post it on my blog. heee heee share, share that's fair, right? plus, tis the season to borrow other people's children and have them sing songs to you, duh!



here is the link for ike's song. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iNEYKQKeiEk

we sure are cute for two ugly people...

dear avid readers of this blog that i call mine,

salutations and seasons greetings. i wish you tidings of great joy. i must confess, the reason i am writing is not the reason i should be writing. i.e. i should be writing because i have something to say, and in this case i have nothing to say. the only reason i am typing right now is because it's been five days since my last blog. there has to be something to say.

i finished chrimboli shopping. i have bought for everyone on my list. and i've already given to sandee and samantha. i am so relieved to have everything DONE! and with a week to spare. yes, i'm that good. this past weekend was a fun one. i saw i am legend. also on saturday night at the mall i saw the beardiest boy. man, he was dreamy and he had such a nice beard. i mean, if there was an oscar for best performance by a leading beard on a face, his beard would have won... hands down! he asked me what my favorite band was. i of course replied "three doors down" because i am maniacal like that. and is maniacal even a real word? one can never be sure. i got ready on saturday night so i took some pictures of my chrimbo outfit. melis said i should take some so i did. i am going to send a picture out with each christmas card which is code for NONE as i am not doing christmas cards this year, or any year for that matter. can you imagine a spinster christmas card?! uh, yes. here is my with my cats. oh and don't forget my dog, he has a fuzzy fu man chu beard to match mine. only i don't have a beard, it is under control as of late.

tomorrow is a busy busy day. kenneth comes home!! tomorrow night at 1030 and i have a truck ton of crap to do. i am going to see kim dance at the temple and then i am coloring my hair and kim's hair. and i am also going to a movie and shopping with sambone.

i hope you all know that something very awkward happened to me today. and i hesitate to talk about it on my blog, for fear of being politically incorrect with my labels, but if i can't be politically incorrect here, then where the hell can i be?! so, a retarded man came in to work today. and i for reals mean retarded. we were really super busy and he kept coming up to my desk and staring right at me and grunting and breathing heavy and it was really awkward. i called my office manager (aka my mom) and told her about the sitch and she told me to grow up. but guess what? i am up and it was still weird. i had to keep opening the door for him and he kept asking me to light his cigarette which may or may not have been code for something. and all kimbizzle and kady could do is laugh at me. only it wasn't very funny. i guess now, looking back on it, it is a little bit on the hilarious side. but at the time i didn't find much humor in it. we broke two records today at work. we saw 60 patients (previous record 58) and we had 69 scheduled (previous record 64). wow. go team FOPT!

tuesday is tomorrow which makes me filled with glee because it is a half day. oh yeah, and have i mentioned that kenny comes home? right, he does. not that i'm like totally FRICKIN psyched for that or anything. let's have a good day tomorrow, shall we? let's go out on a limb and say no scary panting staring retards on tuesday!!

Golden Glizzobes.

ok, so the nominations for the 2008 Golden Globes are released tomorrow morning. After much research and thought, i have composed lists of who/what i think is going to get nominated. i've also included a little section entitled "if i had it my way" where i add my opinion on who/what should be nominated. i haven't officially picked any winners yet, that comes later. seriously, this whole thing was such a process, it is ridiculous that i actually did it. it just goes to show how sad and lonely my life really is. har har. no one is LOL-ing about that. ok so, here they are... my predictions for this year's Golden Globe Nominees:

Best Supporting Actress
Cate Blanchett: I'm Not There
Saoirse Ronan: Atonement
Amy Ryan: Gone Baby Gone
Jennifer Jason Leigh: Margot At the Wedding
Emily Mortimer: Lars and the Real Girl

It's A Long Shot...
Allison Janney: Juno

If I Had It My Way:
Imelda Staunton: Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix
Helena Bonham Carter: Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix



Best Supporting Actor
Steve Zahn: Rescue Dawn
Ben Foster: 3:10 to Yuma
Casey Affleck: The Assasination of Jesse James by the Coward Robert Ford
Heath Ledger: I'm Not There
Paul Dano: There Will Be Blood

It's A Long Shot...
Jack Black: Margot at the Wedding

If I Had It My Way:
Paul Rudd: Knocked Up
James Mardsen: Enchanted



Best Actress- Motion Picture Musical or Comedy
Keri Russell: Waitress
Amy Adams: Enchanted
Ellen Page: Juno
Helena Bonham Carter: Sweeney Todd
Laura Linney: The Savages

It's A Long Shot...
Nikki Blonsky: Hairspray

If I Had It My Way:
Katherine Heigl: Knocked Up
Evan Rachel Wood: Across the Universe


Best Actor- Motion Picture Musical or Comedy
Tom Hanks: Charlie Wilson's War
Ryan Gossling: Lars and the Real Girl
Steve Carrell: Dan in Real Life
Johnny Depp: Sweeney Todd
Phillip Seymour Hoffman: The Savages

It's A Long Shot...
Glen Hansard: Once

If I Had It My Way:
Jason Schwartzman: The Darjeeling, Ltd.
Michael Cera: Superbad



Best Actress- Motion Picture Drama
Angelina Jolie: A Mighty Heart
Marion Cotillard: La Vie En Rose
Jodi Foster: The Brave One
Kiera Knightly: Atonement
Julie Christie: Away From Her

It's A Long Shot...
Anne Hathaway: Becoming Jane

If I Had It My Way:
Nothing. This is the one category I'm pretty set on.



Best Actor- Motion Picture Drama
Javier Bardem: No Country For Old Men
Daniel Day-Lewis: There Will Be Blood
George Clooney: Michael Clayton
Denzel Washington: American Gangster
Jack Nicholson: The Bucket List

It's A Long Shot...
Christian Bale: Rescue Dawn

If I Had It My Way:
Brad Pitt: The Assasination of Jesse James By The Coward Robert Ford
Casey Affleck: Gone Baby Gone


Best Screenplay (i don't think Golden Globe separates original and adapted)
Lars and the Real Girl: Nancy Oliver
Juno: Diablo Cody
Michael Clayton: Tony Gilroy
No Country For Old Men: Joel & Ethan Coen
Kite Runner: David Benioff

It's A Long Shot...
The Assasination of Jesse James By The Coward Robert Ford: Andrew Dominik

If I Had It My Way:
Waitress: Adrienne Shelly
Gone Baby Gone: Ben Affleck & Aaron Stockard



Best Animated Feature:
Ratatouille
Bee Movie
Meet the Robinsons



Best Director- Motion Picture
Joel & Ethan Coen: No Country For Old Men
Jason Reitman: Juno
Tony Gilroy: Michael Clayton
Joe Wright: Atonement
Andrew Dominik: The Assasination of Jesse James By The Coward Robert Ford

It's A Long Shot...
Tim Burton: Sweeney Todd

If I Had It My Way:
Ben Affleck: Gone Baby Gone
Julie Taymor: Across the Universe



Best Motion Picture- Drama
The Assasination of Jesse James By The Coward Robert Ford
Atonement
Kite Runner
Michael Clayton
Into the Wild

Other Possibilities:
American Gangster
Lust, Caution

If I Had it My Way:
Gone Baby Gone


Best Motion Picture- Musical or Comedy
Lars and the Real Girl
Juno
Sweeney Todd
Across the Universe
Hairspray

It's A Long Shot...
The Darjeeling, Ltd

If I Had it My Way:
Knocked Up
Dan in Real Life



Well, there that is. Oh, how i luuuuuurve making lists.

you compare one tree to the entire forest.

hello, all.

so it is official: i am a nerd. and i only preface this entry with that statement b/c i am about to dork it up here in about... oh, thirteen seconds. some of you will share my excitement in this post, some of you will share my dissapointment. but all of you will share my dorkiness. ready?

so, i am not sure how many of you have started reading, or have already read the TWILIGHT book series by Stephenie Meyer. Anyways, i started the first book (twilight) about seventeen times before i actually finished it. it was really hard for me to get into (mostly b/c of the bad writing in the begining), but after a while, i could't help it... i was hooked. i ended up reading all three books in one week. during that time my friend melissa and my aunt jennie were reading them as well and we began discussing who would get cast in the movie (which there will no doubt be). so, i made a list (like i always do) of who i want cast in that movie. needless to say, my list was/still is PERFECT, although i knew the entire time i was making it that none of them would get chosen to be in the movie. since then it has been made OFFICIAL: there is going to be a twilight movie that is scheduled for release in late 2008. The film is being made by Summit Production Company, with director Catherine Hardwicke (The Nativity Story, Thirteen), and writer Melissa Rosenberg (writer of popular t.v. shows Dexter, Ally McBeal, The O.C., to name a few). The casting process is a long one, and they are really taking their time chosing actors, but so far the characters of Isabella Swan and Edward Cullen have officially been cast.

Chosen for Bella is Kristen Stewart (In the Land of Women, The Messengers), and Robert Pattinson (Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire) was chosen for Edward. I'm pretty sad, because my Edward was Tom Ford. But life goes on, i suppose. I just hope they cast the rest of the movie well. There are so many crucial characters to mess up, i hope they're careful. i'm not too excited about Kristen Stewart's acting (she was pretty bad in Land of Women), but she is better than Alexis Bledel who they had originally wanted. In a perfect world, it would be Emmy Rossum, maybe that's just me? anyways... so... are you excited, melissa?!

latesky,

gabrielle.

revelation.

the one i love and the one who loves me will never, ever be the same person.

if i told you this was killing me, would you stop?

why does aaron neville exist?

dear readers of this blog:
raise your hand if you agree with me on this one: aaron neville is a menace to society. right? his music only hurts, it doens't help anything. i don't usually have such strong feelings of hatred against aaron, but with it being the holidays and all, i am hearing alot more from him, thankyouverymuch, xm radio (NOT). his renditions of christmas songs are truly painful. so, congratulations, aaron. you are in a select group of people who can take even the most beautiful songs and turn them into pieces of pure CRAP. also in your company: niel diamond (jew), barbara streisand (jew), and the cheetah girls.

there is something to be said about a person who writes a blog to vent about aaron neville, and it's not a very flattering something. but guess what? whatever you're thinking about me or this post i already know. i obviously am home on a friday night and i am clearly vair vair bored. also to be noted, i am wearing a mumu. so, draw your own conclusions. and then put them in an envelope and mail them to yourself b/c i don't even care.

today was a rainy day, and i love those days above all others. on rainy days for some reason i always crave boneless buffalo wings from chili's which, i might add, i did NOT eat today. let's see, what did i accomplish today? uh... well clinton and i concluded that burl ives sings like a dream. and i decided what my LEAST favorite thing in the world is. i went to the 4A football state championship game at cardinal's stadium on account of my cousin TANNER'S team was playing. they lost which is tres merde, but the game was fun anyway. i sat there and played I-SPY celebrity edition with myself. i spied terrance howard selling pretzels, bilbo baggins cheering on the marauders, and sandra bullock stuck in a vicious time warp in the end zone. i am pretty sure the only person who can appreciate this game and my spies is kenneth. appologies to everyone who is NOT him and just read this paragraph.

*side note: my outfit was adorable today. i wore the cutes erin featherston top with these really cute weathered jeans and my red bcbg pumps. loved it. i also did my hair and makeup today, i felt extra ambitious.

sad moment of my life today: i purchased daughtry's cd tonight at zia records. i am telling myself it didn't count against me though, b/c it was used and i used my zia credit to get it so it didn't technically cost me anything. whatever, the bottom line is, i went to zia by myself in the rain and bought daughtry. triste. vair triste.

so i drove down scottsdale road tonight and the roads were all wet and the weather was all rainy and all of the buildings were decorated in christmas lights and everything looked so beautiful. i swear scottsdale has the most extravagant buildings and they all have the most detailed christmas lights. i was listening to my ipod, i believe it was the beatles at the time, but i just had an overwhelming sense of appreciation come over me. and in that moment i really honestly just felt like everything in my life is going to be ok. i love moments like those, they really bring me such peace, even if it is just for a few minutes. the earth looked so beautiful and fresh and clean after the rain, and my family was with me, and i had good music playing and it was just really a perfect moment. and i just started thinking about my life in its entirety, and how greatful i am for all of my blessings, no matter how insignificant they may seem. i wish that i took more time out of my day to think about my life and all of the blessings i have, i know i don't do that often enough. i think it is important to stop and think sometimes. take the long way home and use the extra time to think about my life and all of the amazing opportunities and blessings i have, all of the extraordinary people that are in my life, and also to think about what i can do for others to be an extraordinary person in their lives. often times i get too caught up in thinking about what is going wrong in my life; things that aren't going the way i had planned them to, or directing too many of my thoughts to things i do not have, or qualities that i lack. it's really quite selfish to think about myself so much, especially negatively, and it's such an unatractive quality, one i hope i don't show too often. for example, instead of complaining about the distance between NY and AZ, i should be greatful for my wonderful phone plan. besides, complaining never accomplishes anything. what good does talking about how much i hate the distance do? if i hate it so much, i should do something about it. stop talking about making changes and start making them. stop saying "when" and start saying "from now on". oh dear, this has turned in to what sounds like a new year's resolutiong or something. i really shouldn't write under the influence of nyquil. i shouldn't be allowed on the computer this late.

i'm sorry for the rant. thank you to those who read it, though. i will make you a copy of my new daughtry cd to show my gratitude.

i love you all. no really, i do.

signed, gabrielle.

christmas at the walz house!

buddy the elf came into our office today! he didn't bring any arctic puffins, but he did bring a reindeer. sweeeeeeet!

so, there is po in our tree. he is officially a mountain lion. i was watching a movie and i looked over and our tree was shaking and i was so confused. until i remembered that i live with simba. what a weirdo.

honestly, this layout is ridiculous. i am sooo not blog saavy. i am watching a really horrible christian bale movie right now, and honestly, i didn't think that existed. oh well.

happy holidays.

-gabrielle.

new york photo time.

dear bloggy mcbloggerton,
this blog is designed specifically for my family and friends who have not seen my ny pictures. there's really no other way to show everyone who wants to see. that sounds a bit conceited of me to say, but really, it's just the truth.



me in central park... look at all the pretty leaves!!
me by the fountain... the same fountain in the movie enchanted.
kenny and i by the infamous fountain.

nyc at night time... that little white dot is the moon. so pretty.
i don't have trees like this in AZ.
yes, i am.
how cute are my boots!! yeah, the leaves are good too.kenny and i on the train. if i look concernicus, it's because i'm pretty sure i am sitting in someone elses urine.

kenny in the cab... the only one we took the entire time in the city.
times square!!
baby.
rockefeller center!!

i finally found it!!

kenny's apartment. on the beautiful suede esque couch.
we are cute!
me on kenny's bed.
more me on kenny's bed.
kenny and i in the cab. i really despise me in this photo, but he looks brill, so i'll post it anyways.

so, the pics are in a pretty random order, and off center or what have you. i'm not quite used to this whole blogtastic way of life. hope you all enjoyed.

love, peace, and winter fleece,

gabrielle.

desiderata.

dear friends,

today is tuesday which is humpday minus one. which means that tuesday PLUS one equals HUMPDAY which, in turn, is tomorrow and that makes me filled with glee. today was my half day at work and i spent my afternoon going to the gym, doing syd's hair/make-up for her wedding photos, and getting my hairs done. how exciting is that? so... sydney's hair and make-up turned out so beautiful today, i was really happy and so was she. not that we ever doubted me, but there's always like a huge sigh of relief breathed by me when someone is ultra super happy with the way they turn out. so, A+ for me and A++ for sydney for getting married in a bloody week and a half. (hers is the wedding for which i have no date) but, such is life when you are a lonely lark in a sea full of blue jays.

i went to the gym today and my mother was SUPPOSED to meet me there (emphasis on the word "supposed") because oooohhh noooo! she never showed up. because why? oooohhhh nooooo because she was talking to my aunt kristi. so i was forced to gym by myself. which of course forced me to make up stupid moves at each station. for example, at one station i did the snoopy dance, while at another, i kick boxed. and at another, i did the robot. all by my lonesome. and i stood by the window and waited for my mommy's car to pull up and it never did. so sad.

i've been thinking thoughtful thoughts lately (which are never good), and i was thinking today about how nothing can last forever, and how all good things must come to an end, and a bunch of other cliches such as those, and i was just remembering my summer. i think the reason i started thinking about my summer was because i was talking to my friend about her summer. she was telling me how this past summer was the worst of her entire life and then she proceeded to list the reasons why it has been labeled as such (all of which were extremely good reasons). and so, with talk of summer, i started to remember mine. and this past summer was so amazing for me. it was probably one of the best of my life, and for so many reasons. first off, it is the first summer in about 4 years where i am at a job that i love, and working with people i love. that hasn't been the case since i worked at the salon with my uncle and sam (not to be confused with uncle sam). not that i didn't like working at my last job, because i did. but whatever that is not the point. another reason i loved this summer is because kady and i had sleepovers pretty much every night. and we got to go swimming and sing karaoke and sleep together in mumus. and none of that happens anymore on account of we aren't really friends anymore. and that's ok. i went to chicago with my family, and i got my first chanel bracelet. i guess those all sound like stupid superficial things, and they aren't really what made this summer amazing, it was more who i spent my time with rather than what i did with my time, or what i bought. kenny was in arizona for most of the summer, and i had blasties with him. i had a summer full of pizzookies, denny's at 2 a.m., being loathed by waiters/waitresses, photoshoots (we discovered how to take black and white pictures on his camera.. haha), long drives, emmy/oscar talk, reading imdb forums at 3 in the morning, watching horrible rob zombie remakes, buying over-priced suede jackets... really the list could go on forever. and then to finish the summer off we got to go to Disneyland together. i mean, really. how lucky is that? it was my most favorite time of my life. so why does it sometimes make me sad to think about it? i don't understand how something that was once so amazing turns into something that, at times, makes me ache. and then i think again about those phrases. "nothing gold can stay". why does it have to be like that? does it ever really have to be that way or is it something we do to ourselves so our lives are more dramatic? i wonder if i've spent the last year trying to end a relationship that never really started, just so i wouldn't get hurt. my plan backfired though, because i'm still hurting. i didn't save myself from anything. i didn't spare myself any heartache. maybe what i did, or what i am doing, is shutting myself off from having any connections at all. is it better to live life that way? i think maybe i have wandered into a completely different topic here, and that wasn't my initial intention, so all apologies. i just want to remember to enjoy the good times while i have them. i mean really really enjoy them instead of thinking of a way to protect myself from the hard times that lie ahead. because whether i am protected or not there will always be hard times, and i'm learning now that there won't always be amazing times.

the title of this random little blog of hopelessness is the french word meaning "things that are missed". i think it was a good choice. and yes, it was a great summer.

signed,

gabrielle.

office christmas party complete with yyyyyankee swap!

last night was my office's christmas party. unfortunately i was the sickest baby for it! i have a very horrible case of the strep throat and i looked like death warmed over, but i went anyways, and smiled through it all. kenny was my first choice for a date, but he is back home in NY (tear) so my cousin ERIN was amazing and she completed me last night by attending the party with me.

everything was so beautiful and the food was really yummy and the presents were AMAZING! i didn't get the ipod i wanted but who cares? i sucked big time at bunko, but that is my life. i pretty much expected it. thank goodness for britney or i would have been dead last by a long shot. haha. but i won the NINTENDO DS LITE and i am really happy with it. clinton had me for (not so) secret santa and he got me the bestest dvds ever: stranger than fiction, big, and the garbage pail kids. wooot, ya! anyways, the night was awesome, i love absolutely everyone i work with, not 100% of the time, but i'm not great 100% of the time either. i'm extremely greatful to live where i live, work where i work, and to have the people in my life that i do. i am really, really blessed and i really truly appreciate everyone in my life. it is important to me that you all know that. even when i'm mad at you, i'm loving you.

i've got to get to bed early tonight... i'm trying to get over this illness (good luck).

laters, gabrielle.