sad, but true.

so, i have been avoiding the internet all together lately. this includes, but is not limited to: myspace, facebook, instant messenger, perezhilton.com (no!) and yes, my blogspot. i have pretty much just been reading, writing, and watching arrested development on dvd. i'm not sure what triggered this, i don't even think it was one specific event. i've just been dealing with alot of different stuff lately and i decided that the last thing i needed was "internet drama". i don't get too much drama on my blog, mostly because my readers are my family and they love and support me (as i do them), but if i don't get on the internet at all i am less tempted to check my other sites. i'm going to be making some pretty big decisions here in the next little while, and hopefull some life-changing events will be taking place because of those decisions. i am really working on my health; i am going through a series of tests so "they" can find out what exactly is wrong with me, so i can be officially diagnosed which hopefully means that i can learn how to take care of myself and manage my health properly. i am working on removing the negative from my life, people or otherwise. i am learning to grieve, if there even is a correct way to do such a thing. i do kind of feel like i'm on overload since i have already had to say goodbye to three people this year, each of them difficult in their own way. anyways, no more nonsense. the point is i may not be writing in this as much for the next little while whilst i "deal with stuff" or "figure stuff out"... you know, any of those nutty cliches, or what have you. so, i will talk to you all soon. there is an amazing blog filled with lots of golden gems coming your way soon. i hope your families are doing well and i look forward to seeing you all as soon as i can.

thank you all for your support! i love you.

love,
gabrielle.

p.s. in lieu of flowers, please send me random text messages of luuuurve. :)