my life... now

quick update b/c i am about to fall over DEAD!

1. i got a record player and it is the best thing that's happened to me in a long time. ive been spending my free time listening to killer records like the beatles, elton john, fleetwood mac, madonna, billy joel, and even some new stuff like eisley, iron & wine, the faint, and bright eyes. if anyone has records they don't use anymore, send them my way please!!

2. i am addicted to american idol and project runway and the gauntlet 3. reality tv has sucked me in. cry for me.

3. the writer's strike is over. most shows should return in april... just in time for my bday. yay!

4. i can almost start tanning again!! one more month on this blasted medicine and then it's back to the booths for some skin cancer 101 and i couldn't be happier.

5. my fringe is annoying me at the moment.

6. i still have to wash my face and it is midnight. i have to get up in 5 hrs.

7. the oscar's were a bit on the lame side this year with the exception of the following: marion cotillard winning, tilda swinton winning, the kids from ONCE performing/ WINNING, heidi klum's dress, cate blanchett losing, and gary busey's tantrum on the red carpet. other than that... SNOOOOOOZE!

8. i am almost done seeing all of the movies to complete my 2007 list. just a few more left. oh man, i can't wait to write that blog.

9. i'm starting singing lessons. stop laughing.

10. i made carmelitas tonight.

11. this list is boring. i don't even know why i started it.

12. my new motto in life is "make the decision". it is part of one of my favourite quotes of all time. i made a mural on my wall with pictures of all the things i want to accomplish in this life and i added that quote to it just the other day. i have decided to stop waiting for things to happen to me, and instead to make them happen. i've decided to quit depending on people. i decided that i never again want to be in a relationship, friend or otherwise, where i am desperate for the other person. instead of talking about what i want to do, i am going to start doing it. i am faced with hundreds of decisions daily, and i am going to make them myself, i am going to own them. i understand that i can't always decide what happens to me in my life, but i can always decide how i react to what happens to me. people can only affect me as much as i allow them to. so i am going to make the decision to be better. take the challenge with me and MAKE THE DECISIONS in your life that need to be made. if you want to do something, do it. the only thing stopping you is yourself.


what a weird note to end on. you'll have to forgive me, today i took a nap and i had the most intense dream that i was getting a tooth pulled from steve nash and he gave me laughing gas in the dream and i haven't been "all there" since. sorry.

weirdly and confusidly (?) yours,
gabriella.

hannah montana concert in 3-D

ok, i don't care what anyone says, i LOVE hannah montana. it's a sick disease i have and i used to try to fight it, but now i just embrace it. i wanted to go to her concert when she came to phx, but i didnt have $1000 to drop on a ticket, and even if i did, i didn't have anyone to go with. so when i found out that the concert would be playing in a theater near me (YESSSSS) in 3-D i had to go. except i started thinking about how absolutely depressing it would be if i got caught at the theater, BY MYSELF, in ridiculous 3-D glasses... i would ensure a place for myself on the board of spinsters for sure. so how did i solve this problem, you ask? i took my little freinds along. i called my cousin and asked her if i could borrow her kids and then i called melissa and kidnapped meg and ike too. and then i took my cousin taylor (friends for life now). and guess what?! it was awesome and everyone had so much fun! all the kids loved it so much. of course i took pictures, everyone looked so kickin' in the 3-D goggles!! on the way over we all sang hannah montana/ miley cyrus songs together and i realized what a blessing it is for me to be able to hang with these kids. i know that their parents think that i am too nice and maybe a bit weird for taking them so many places, but what they don't understand is that i benefit from the time i spend with their kids just as much, probably more, than the kids do. there was just a time on the way over where they were all singing and laughing and enjoying eachother and it was just a very perfect moment. i am so glad that i can give their parents a break every once in a while and hang with them, because i honestly and truly love them so much. they are all hilarious and beautiful in their own way. plus, it is a nice excuse to be able to say i sat through hannah montana for my 7 year old cousins.... haha. everyone knows the truth, i am fooling no one. and you know what? i don't think i care. so there.

who says we're too old?!

last friday kim and i had a sleepover. it was the first sleepover for both of us in a long time. we've had it planned for about a month, so it was so exciting... we actually had a countdown leading up to the day. we drove home from work together, ate chicken fingers from outback (dericious!!), purchased/installed kim's hair extensions (p.s. she is BLONDE now thx to me!), then i did kim's makeup, followed by my own. then, it was picture time. i know what you're thinking and the answer is yes... we are dweebs- to the MAX. and no, we don't care.

america's next top kim.

crying like contestants on IDOL.

confession.

word.

obsession.

justin timberlake impressions.

dodging the paps.

having a moment.

kim realizing that grown-ups can pee their pants too.

this should never happen. but it does.

kim, your best friend...woof.

kim is getting her flair on.

olsen twins... ish.

get down, get down.

more singing faces. what can we say, we LOVE singing along to 'N SYNC!

after picture time we watched the justin timberlake future sex/love sounds dvd that i bought myself for christmas. though i'd been to the concert, i hadn't seen the dvd yet. it was AMAZING. if you don't have it you should buy it. or at least rent it or borrow it. it should be seen by all. he is so amazing and so beautiful. watching that made me remember when i went to the concert with kenny last year and i gotta say that is honestly the first time i actually missed kenny since his departure from my life. i had originally been saving the dvd to watch it with kenny but we never got around to it last time he was here. there were definately a few parts that i know he would have loved. hahaha. that was fun, having someone in my life who loves 'NSYNC like i do. but now i have kimbizzle who is obsessed too. so we had a "NSYNC singalong in the car and it was fun. just like (my) old times.

chase returns from south africa.

one of my most favourite people in the entire world is my cousin chase. recently he returned from serving a mission in south africa. he returned to us with a strong testimony and many, many stories... some amazing and some just plain scary (i.e. a bed full of SPIDERS!!) i enjoyed spending time with him recently when he made a tiny trip to az with his brothers corbin and cole. i loved listening to him talk and bear witness of the truth of the gospel. it is amazing to see the changes that have occured in him over the past two years. i truly love him and am greatful for the example that he is to me and to his brothers and all of his little cousins who look up to him. i was lucky enough to snap a pic with him before he went back home to ut. come back soon, chase!! we miss you!

chase and i.

corbin and i.

and just for fun, connor playing video games!!

i can't wait for my brother to come home!!! DECEMBER 3, 2008!!

my second family.

i am trying my best to catch up on the blogging i've missed out on these past few weeks, so i'm gonna just drop a hunk of blogs at once while i'm on here. although this is my first one and already i want to punch someone in their temple. so we'll see how far i get. here goes...

a couple of weeks ago i took the farnsworth kittens to see spiderwick chronicles (the movie was not for me so much). after the movie i took them to my house to visit my pets and madness ensued. the blogger in me grabbed a camera and captured some of these magical moments. they are as follows:


meg with "the chubby cat" malcolm.

summer and oz man laughing at an inside joke.

ike's favorite.

meggie with ozzie.

summer entertains malcolm with her sweater.

i always am surprised by how much i enjoy my time with the young people in my life. they are so loving and forgiving and so very accepting of me just the way i am and i love them for that. i am greatful for the moments i am able to spend with them and the memories i make during those moments.

new addtions to "twilight" cast.

I am super excited to report that actress Anna Kendrick ("Rocket Science") and "Just Jordan" star Justin Chon are the latest additions to the vampire flick "Twilight". Kendrick will be playing the roll of Jessica, while Chon picks up the role of Eric. The actors are joining Kristen Stewart, cast as Bella Swan and Robert Pattison (a.k.a. Cedric Diggory in the "Potter" series), cast as Edward Cullen (swoon!). Based on the #1 best-selling series by Stephenie Meyer, shooting starts at the end of February in Washington. "Thirteen" filmmaker Catherine Hardwicke directs, and is intending to launch a series containing at least three films.

For more, including pictures of the recently added actors, visit imdb.com

sad, but true.

so, i have been avoiding the internet all together lately. this includes, but is not limited to: myspace, facebook, instant messenger, perezhilton.com (no!) and yes, my blogspot. i have pretty much just been reading, writing, and watching arrested development on dvd. i'm not sure what triggered this, i don't even think it was one specific event. i've just been dealing with alot of different stuff lately and i decided that the last thing i needed was "internet drama". i don't get too much drama on my blog, mostly because my readers are my family and they love and support me (as i do them), but if i don't get on the internet at all i am less tempted to check my other sites. i'm going to be making some pretty big decisions here in the next little while, and hopefull some life-changing events will be taking place because of those decisions. i am really working on my health; i am going through a series of tests so "they" can find out what exactly is wrong with me, so i can be officially diagnosed which hopefully means that i can learn how to take care of myself and manage my health properly. i am working on removing the negative from my life, people or otherwise. i am learning to grieve, if there even is a correct way to do such a thing. i do kind of feel like i'm on overload since i have already had to say goodbye to three people this year, each of them difficult in their own way. anyways, no more nonsense. the point is i may not be writing in this as much for the next little while whilst i "deal with stuff" or "figure stuff out"... you know, any of those nutty cliches, or what have you. so, i will talk to you all soon. there is an amazing blog filled with lots of golden gems coming your way soon. i hope your families are doing well and i look forward to seeing you all as soon as i can.

thank you all for your support! i love you.

love,
gabrielle.

p.s. in lieu of flowers, please send me random text messages of luuuurve. :)